1. You can ONLY answer 'Yes' or 'No'. 2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone comments you and asks— and, believe me, the temptation to explain some of these will be overwhelming. Nothing is exactly as it seems.
Been arrested? — no Kissed someone you didn't like? — no Slept in until 5 PM? — yes Fallen asleep at work/school? — no Held a snake? — yes Ran a red light? — no Been suspended from school? — no Experienced love at first sight? — no Totaled your car in an accident? — no Been fired from a job? — no Fired somebody? — no Sung karaoke? — yes Pointed a gun at someone? — no Did something you told yourself you wouldn't? — yes Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? — yes Caught a snowflake on your tongue? — yes Kissed in the rain? — no =[ Had a close brush with death (your own)? — yes Saw someone die? — no Played Spin-the-Bottle? — no Smoked a cigar? — no Sat on a rooftop? — yes Smuggled something into another country? — no Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? — no Broken a bone? — no Skipped school? — yes Eaten a bug? — no Sleepwalked? — no Walked on a moonlit beach? — yes Ridden a motorcycle? — no Dumped someone? — yes Forgotten your anniversary? — no Lied to avoid a ticket? — no Ridden in a helicopter? — no Shaved your head? — no Blacked out from drinking? — no Played a prank on someone? — yes Hit a home run? — no Felt like killing someone? — no Cross-dressed? — yes Been falling-down drunk? — no Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? — no Eaten snake? — no Marched/Protested? — no Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? — XD yes Puked on an amusement ride? — no Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? — no Knitted? — no Been on TV? — no Shot a gun? — yes Skinny-dipped? — no Given someone stitches? — no Eaten a whole habenero pepper? — no Ridden a surfboard? — no Drunk straight from a liquor bottle? — no Had surgery? — no Streaked? — no Been taken by ambulance to a hospital? — no Tripped on mushrooms? — no Passed out when NOT drinking? — no Peed on a bush? — no Donated Blood? — no Grabbed electric fence? — no Eaten alligator meat? — no Eaten cheesecake? — no Killed an animal when not hunting? — yes Peed your pants in public? — no Snuck into a movie without paying? — yes Written graffiti? — no Still love someone you shouldn't? — no Think about the future? — yes Been in handcuffs? — yes Believe in love? — yes Sleep on a certain side of the bed? — yes
Overall feel: No where as good as last year. But it was still good.
Pre-con: Dad took me, my stepbrother & Jessica to the convention center annnnd we stood in line for a bit. I didn't dress up, I just wore this white dress that I wore to school that day that reminds me of Kairi. Me and Jon talked to this random guy that was behind us in line for a bit and I saw a furry that was wearing a Hurricanes jersey so I had to go hug him. After we got our badges we just kinda walked around the convention center, since none of us had been there before except for Jessica. Eventually Jessica went off with Addy so it was me and Jon and then I ran into Lyn and Anna. Lyn diverted with me and Jon where we went up into this secret floor that's really just an employee only space but still, you could get to it from a public elevator so lol. We also randomly chilled in the corner of one of these giant ballrooms where I found a squeaky chair [which the same kind of chair appeared for the Org XIII panel as well] lol. Then we went to track down Jessica before we had to leave so we sat in the karaeoke room for a bit which the first 2 songs were kinda rock/screamo and thennnn...we got rickrolled. That was about it before we went home. Then I spent the rest of the night finishing the shoes for Neku XD.
Friday: Me and Tami did literal last minute crap for Neku's shoes before I dressed up as Neku and left for the con with Jon, Jessica & her brother. We went to hardees on the way there since it was around lunch time but me and Jon had already eaten so we just got drinks. Jon was trying to get something and he asked me to hold his drink cuz we didn't have any cup holders. So I was like yeah, sure and thennn coke spills on my white shorts lol blah. But apparently if you spill sprite over the same spot [I did this purposely, mind you lol] and wipe it up, then it comes out =]. Then we got there aaand just randomly wandered around again for a bit, people actually really liking my shoes for Neku even though I kinda thought it was the worst part ><; but it works lol. First person I took a picture of was a KH1 Sora when I first walked in ^_^. Eventually we had to go unpack our stuff from the car and hang it all up in the hotel closet. Soon after we met up with our Riku, who was dressed up as Matt from Death Note, annd she made us change into our KH2 outfits. She was Deep Dive Riku; so she had a blindfold and we had to hold hands and lead her through the convention center because she was blind lol. Then Kairi kept like raping Riku while I was eating. Yeaaah, she's a little special. So we did some more wandering back and forth before the NOIZ concert, which me and Kairi only stayed at for like 1 second before leaving cuz it was soooo hot in there and loud. So more wandering around, picture taking, hugs, and whatnot. Thennn later Kairi changed into her Hetalia costume for which I will not even try to ATTEMPT to spell her character's name and I changed into my rave outfit thing. After standing in line for like 20 mins with Riku who was also wearing a rave outfit and wasn't really Riku, I decided I was really tired so I just went back and went to bed.
Saturday: Didn't wake up till like 9: 30ish so didn't finish getting ready till about 10: 30. First I went as Riku from DN Angel, which a few people recognized me and I took a couple of pictures. But I had high heels for that costume so I could only handle it for so long before I decided to switch into school uniform for Sora. A lot of people didn't get that this was a cosplay, sadly ><;. Still, I took a few pictures, mostly at the photoshoot. But everything with that photoshoot was kinda ADD and hard to follow so me, Riku, and Kairi all decided we should just go to the pool. Neither Riku nor Kairi brought bathing suits so they both jumped into the pool with cosplays lol Kairi changed into her school uniform costume though to do it because she never wore it for anything else. So after I went to the pool I didn't want to spike my hair again and I really wanted an excuse to wear Neku so I changed back into Neku after I dried off. So I walked with Riku, Kairi [Riku wasn't anything and Kairi was the hetalia character again], and my mom to McDonalds cuz all the food stands in the convention center were already closed cuz it was like 10 at night. After eating, Riku and Kairi went back to Riku's room for Hetalia stuff so I just went back to the convention center. Don't really remember what I did till I met up with Riku again who was Russia from Hetalia, followed her who found Lyn sitting on the floor with other random pople. So after Russia/Riku got up and left, I talked with Lyn for a bit before she left too so I got up to go check out the rave, to see if it was as full as everyone said it was. People were complaining they should open the second room, which they did, but you had to go in through the 1st rooms door to get into it because all they did was take down the barrier from the inside instead of happening two openings. But I couldn't find anyone I knew and I didn't want to dance with random people soooo I went home and went to bed.
Sunday: Me and Kairi had to get up at 7: 00 am to get ready for the Org XIII fan panel. So I rushed to get ready cuz it was already 7: 30 by the time I got out of the shower and we got to the convention center and we were the first ones there besides Anti-Sora. We heard a bunch of people upstairs so we were like oh many they're practicing the panel upstairs since we're probably not allowed in the room yet so we went up there and as soon as we get up the stairs theres two girls pointing in our direction and someones like "You might wanna run!" so I pull out my keyblade lol and then when they're actually running in our direction I run down the stairs a little ways to avoid a death glomp but they got anti-Sora and Kairi first so its okay xD so I went back up and gave hugs. So after that we went back downstairs where Squeeky was [person in charge of the panel] and waited a few more minutes before the room was open. After figuring out seating arrangements and getting all the volunteers together it was time to start the panel so just like last year it was a lot of improving. At the end we had a costume contest thing, which the girl who was playing Xion won which I'm glad because I voted for her lol. Then we had a photoshoot that was a lot more organized although people were dying because the sun was starting to come out of the clouds and be really hot and blinding. Then I went in the lobby and got owned in a battle with Xemnas. After that I went in the dealers room one last time to tryyyy and find something for Kurt and failed ._. so then I went back to the hotel room and asked my Mom to walk to McDonalds with me. Riku and Kairi happened to walk in right as we were leaving so they ended up coming with us as well. As we reach the bottom floor, we realize we're in the same elevator as the J-rock band NOIZ; two of them, anyway. But one of theo two happens to be the one that Riku had been obsessing/fantasizing over. So, that REALLY made her life complete. And after I ate McDonalds, I went home; basically. After waiting for like 20 mins for an elevator, every single one going down was full so I suggested that we get an elevator going up and ride it back down. So we did and it worked XD and after we dropped off most of the people on the top floor, then we made it look like we had no room for anyone else for the other 2 floors until we stopped on until the 4th floor [the one we were staying on] and we let all the other people that were waiting with us on.
Annnnd that's about it. As for my personal life, my mom now knows about Kurt. Woo. And I seriously need to think of something for Kurt's birthday ;-; aaaaaaand I haven't talked to him in like 2 days and it's saddening.
I just got home maybe 20 minutes ago and I must say this has probably been my favorite play that we've done so far. I still have "The Oldest Established Permanent Floating Crap Game In New York" stuck in my head so I went on youtube and I'm listening to it now.
Besides the fact that my mics are dying cuz half of them are as old as the school is, nothing bad really happened this show. Although today Jess's mic was randomly peaking on the sound board even though it's been exactly where it was every single other night so don't know what's up with that but oh well. We're supposedly getting new mics soon anyway! So we'll actually have 16 functional ones again. That'll be awesome. I only had 1 mic so I could check on everyone elses and a few of my crew members [the more experianced ones] had a ton of mic changes as well as two of my newer crew members had one mic change to cover all the characters we needed. They did it all in the end though so I'm proud of them =]
Here's a few random things that aren't really sound related but were funny:
Before the show we'd be having like mag light [that's flashlights covered with a colored gel to make it less noticible to the audience] light saber wars lol so yesterday after my leg was 'cut off' I fell on my knee and like killed it. So that hurt today after I woke up lol. And we had like 2 wardrobe malfunctions during "Take Back Your Mink" because they ripped off their dresses and had these like...leotard things lol and some of the straps around the neck came undone. The first night the girl held it up the whole time and this night the girl was like omg I flashed the audience like kinda bragging about it.
Another thing was in the mission, one of the shifters backstage pretended that she hung herself lol like she was in a noose so all the actors were like I REALLY REALLY HOPE SHE'S JOKING so then she burst out laughing. Another thing was in the 2nd act when the people in the mission are like Hallelujah! this one girl on crutches goes I'M HEALED! cuz she had broken her foot after someone had jumped on it in heels accidentally while doing one of our like traditional things we do before we go onstage. So after she screamed "I'M HEALED!" the girl who played Sarah ran off stage [I'm pretty sure she had a cue to leave but I don't know for sure lol even if she didn't, she didn't have any more speaking parts] and just died laughing. After the black out every single actor I saw was like crying to keep from laughing on stage haha.
One of the biggest things that happened this week, even though it wasn't show related, was that someone made this blog like dissing a bunch of girls (although I kinda agreed with a lot of the things said about most of them) and it included one of my best friends [Taylor] and Katie. So we spent all night backstage yesterday figuring out who it was and narrowed it done to one person and now the website says they're going to shut it down because "they never wanted it to be this big" even though the last post before it said something like "Well now that this blog is spreading like wildfire I should give some more recent info..." They're stupid. Whatever.
Hmmm. Well I can't really think of anything else so I guess I'll just stop here. Kurt seemed kinda weird today but oh well I guess..
Even though I never actually said anything to him myself lol; he just kind of answered me one day. Although I'm still not quite sure if it's because he actually still reads either this or my Xanga, or that he just randomly got on that subject conviently enough for me.
But my walls are definately nonexistant now, for sure. We've been talking like 24/7 and even though I already feel like I know so much about him I feel like I learn more and more every day and I really enjoy that. I had one of those "what would you do if..., what do you think of my..., + random other things" survey that I did for him first and he did it for me and kdjfdsofj. Best. He answered a few jokingly but he was mostly over all really serious and it was extremely sweet. I babbled for like 10 years on some on mine for him of course lols. I even brought up that OMGSH YOU'RE SO HOT most embarassing moment hahah and he was like omg I remember that best moment ever. hahaha.
I never ever would have imagined that we'd be this way again; not before we met in real life, anyway. I figured we wouldn't let ourselves. Cuz it used to be the occasional [or maybe not so much] flirting, and then the best friend kind of I love you in the way that more of means omgsh you're the best! Now it's everyyyyything. Although I still don't know what we are XD. Cuz everytime he mentions like future situations in the summer he'll call me his girlfriend or himself my boyfriend so I don't know if he currently considers himself to be that or if we'll just be dating the second I step out of my car or something haha.
I havehavehavehave to go to NJ this summer or I'll die. Maybe not literally, but inside I will lol. Our like plans that will technically get us nowhere still for now are getting me so excited for this. He doesn't seem to worried about his parents letting me sleep over [even if it's on the couch lol] but really. They know like next to nothing about me, really. Even if they definately do let me, there's still the question of my own parents/ my sister depending on if I'm going to stay at her house which I might now just because Kurt was like I'll feel really bad if you drive all that way just for like one night & have to turn around and go right back.
Although I would like to kidnap him to come look at colleges with me, but we'd most likely be doing that with my Dad. And that would be really awkward lols. Well I just texted him asking if he thinks his parents would let him come down here for like a week after they met me but yeah he made good points x_x haha. Although they're still points that apply to staying there just one night too so I don't even know.
Gahhh. & Like I just said to him and as I've said to Taylor a few times, I feel like if I just told my Mom this whole story she'd like maybe understand and let me do it but I'm so paranoid of it backfiring and me not being allowed to do like anything ever in my life. I don't wanna take that chance but I do at the same time ._.
XD. Kurt like answered me without me even saying anything. Which makes me wonder if he reads my stuff...but okay!
So I'll probably end up going to NJ this summer...lol. But friends for right now! Just so you know. And lol the trailer for White Chicks is on right now; I adore that movie.
So I'm getting ready to watch 13 Going 30, which is my favorite movie after Lion King. And it the very first as well as few last minutes of the movie, the young kid version of the main guy is the voice actor of Pence! ^_^
So I'm watching that<3. Yaaay. Today was still kinda boring but better.
I love when I post entries like the one below and like the whole situation just kinda dies so it was really pointless and I feel really stupid.
Yep.
I am so damn bored right now, though.
I feel like I haven't slept in days even though I've been going to sleep earlier than normal every single night. I think I've been over sleeping. I don't know how, considering I can sleep in till 2 in the afternoon and be okay but when I go to sleep at 9: 30 and get up at 7, I feel drained.
I can't focus on writing and I'm not in the mood to play video games. And I've seen every movie I own 34596349573497 times. And there's never anything on TV.
xxx Hahah, Kurt, I love you. But you make my life so confusing.
I can't go back to how we were, now. At least, I don't think I can. Like just being best friends, I mean. I probably could but how long until we both go back on that again?
I think we both know it's impossible for us to be JUST best friends. Even though it's the best thing we can do right now because we never see each other. But I swear to God it seems like we can't go a few months without slipping into the man I really wish I could be with you but I can't sort of thing.
I love how I always type things like a letter, but I probably won't send it. Hahah. Then again I'm pretty sure I said that about the last one. Too bad the last one was a whiny piece of crap and it embarasses me to no end, now. I meant whatever I said back then of course but still; woooow.
But anyways, I'm apparently hardcore caught on you. Like, I can't be interested in anyone else. It just isn't working. I know that's my own damn problem but lol. It doesn't help when you say enough stuff to make me think you want me back.
Maybe you really do. Great. Apparently, so do I. Because I can't say no to you. I love everything you are, and no matter what I will love you; whether in a romantic way or not. I can't bring myself to say I love you too right now. Not after we've gone through so many 'It would be great if we could be together but the internet relationship is pointless' discussions. Hell, maybe if you give me a good enough answer I'll really try my hardest to find a way up there this summer.
I know I can't let myself fully love you cuz ehh when you mention Monica [well, okay. Maybe I would still feel like crap about this one whether I felt for you or not] or whoever it may be I know it's gonna hurt me like hell. I think I'm already to the point where if you brought someone up right now I'd feel horrible. It's so easy for me to fall back into this way about you, but right now I'm keeping a wall up to protect myself. It's definately not strong at this point, but I'm trying to keep it up for as long as I'm not completely sure about how you feel.
If I say I love you, I mean it with like all of my being. I couldn't possible date someone else at the same time if I was saying I love you to you. And if you do really mean it in the romantic way, and I say it back, it will tear me apart once I hear about another girl. It's just how I am.
Even if it is the internet, long distance, and whatever else; if I say I love you it's the same as if I said it inches away from you. So dating other girls is, well...cheating. Or at least, that's how it feels.
So if I cave, if any of this really meant something, if we go with a relationship it has to be handled like a real one. We're not in middle school anymore, and it has to be treated seriously.
Youuu're probably gonna give me an answer that I'll have no clue what to say to or do about but lol. Oh well..
Because I posted it to my Xanga and not on here, stupidly. And I find my lack of cosplay on here disturbing. Because it pretty much owns my life now xD.
From Sora's POV...kinda? XD
Thursday I began my adventure. I stood in line for 2 hours ahah. And I didn't really talk to anyone cept a little to the girl behind me when she was trying to start the line to do a wave. But for some reason, even though I wasn't talking, it didn't feel like an awkward silence like it does at school. And I was smiling the whole time. It just really felt different. Eventually, I got out of line and wandered around a little bit, trying to find the kids that were gonna be in the cosplay skit with me. I never found any of them lol. I did find my friends from school, Anna and Sarah, who also had two other people hanging out with them from South Carolina. We didn't really do anything exciting except for we kinda sat in the lobby while Anna copied all of the music off of one of the other girl's flashdrive. Haha. Oh, and they all got up and started dancing to this song called Lucky Star. So I was kinda like ermmmm. I feel out of place because I don't know this dance! But overall, I still had a good feeling about the whole thing & left like that.
Friday, I arrived in my Sora costume & found my Anti-Sora for our skit. She was with her friends so I was kinda like "Meh, I'd better go." and migrated again to the main lobby again in hopes to find someone I know. Instead, I found a Roxas and Naminè who I tagged along with to the Kingdom Hearts photoshoot. We did pictures by like "Evil characters, good characters" etc and then just all together. Eventually our photoshoot turned into playing red rover XD. So we played that and some kids fingernail like scratched my arm kinda deepish so it burned so I quit for a little while. Another Roxas that was there ended up losing one of her rings so we had to stop & search for that, anyway a little after I quit. I was the one that found the ring too =D. It just proves that Roxas really is my nobody haha. So uh, after that, me and Kairi wandered around the Dealers Room and Artist Alley. I got a kitty ears hat, a chibi Sora plushie, a Sora badge & Sora sticker XD. Eventually we wandered back out to the lobby where I was taken away by Organization members who lead me outside and then began to throw numerous plushies at me XD. And we had an epic battle that'll hopefully be on youtube sometime soon. After that we just kinda sat on the grass and talked with Demyx about she was rated E for everyone haha. I got free pizza sometime around in there, don't exactly remember when. I eventually met up with Anti-Sora again and we challenged each other DDR XD and went to go play that. But since I haven't played it in forever, I failed x-x; Then we went to the animazement forum meetup and didn't really do much there except for give Kairi money to buy her terror squad t-shirt x-x; haha. But I met Lucas, who I'd been talking to on the forum and he was suppose to be our techie for the skit. Kairi left kinda early cuz she was tired, so I hung out with the Roxas that had lost her ring earlier and we had a conversation about why my shorts had gotten short in the 2nd game and what had happened in that pod while I was sleeping. That conversation was pretty hilarious although I don't really remember much. We met up with Anti-Sora again and went to the rave. I was still kinda in shy mode so I didn't dance, and just left. Anti-Sora turned out to leave too anyway haha I found her in the lobby while I randomly wandered around to find someone I knew again. So I just chilled with her until 12.
Saturday I had to get there at 9 for the Cosplay signups (or so I thought it was. It was just a general info meeting about it...). As soon as I stepped out of the car there was like...20 fangirl screams of SORA!!! haha. It was really different. I was kinda like whoa! So after being delayed by hugs and picture taking, I made it into the room where I needed to be and had to stand in the back since there were no more chairs. So I listened to that stuff then migrated out to the main lobby again before locating Kairi. We found our Anti-Sora be we lost her in the dealers room haha. She lost her cell phone so we were kinda in and out of contact with her all day. Eventually we met up with our Roxas from the previous day along with the Axel we found out was the one that was gonna be in our skit XD. So we hung out with them, went up stairs to eat some sea-salt soup (melted ice cream) before we all kinda got sick of it and poured it down the ice maker (lol Roxas). This is when we found out we were still actually doing our skit even though our Demyx was injured. I previously told Anti-Sora we weren't gonna do it because it would just be too much hassle to find a new person. But we easily modified to lines for Saix and then began searching for Anti-Sora again, who had lost her cellphone. We eventually found her playing DDR lol. Then we had to rapidly paint her face and practice our lines before moving downstairs and getting in line to try and enter the contest. Sadly, we were like one behind the last group to get in. So then we had to migrate outside and get in line for the viewing of the contest. There of course weren't enough seats for us all in the auditorium, so we had to watch the simulcast in the tent. Even in the tent, we were sitting in the 2nd to last row. And we weren't even halfway done the line to get in. So I don't know where all the other people went. Some people stood in the back, but it wasn't a lot. So we watched those on a big TV screen and they were all pretty good. After that, we went to Artist Alley to watch the katamari ball but that didn't turn out to be very exciting so we left that. Then Kairi left and I hung out with my main Roxas (different from the one of the previous night) and Axel, and I went to go dance with them at the rave along with Marluxia. But at midnight, like Cinderella as Marluxia said, I had to leave XD.
Sunday, I was suppose to get up at 7. ...But my alarm didn't go off. So I woke up at 7: 48. So I had to rush through a shower, quickly spike my hair and throw on my clothes & have Dad drive me there to attempt to get there by 8: 30. I got there at 8: 45 but the door for the room the Org XIII panel was going to be in wasn't open yet, so I was still on time XD. Half the people in the panel didn't make it there at all, actually O-o;. So I did pretty good. Even with only half the people, it was still really good. They kept blaming everything on me but what can I say. I guess I did kinda ruin their plans... and lives... lol. But it's not my fault for Xaldin's fear of Mickey. That's his own issue. So after the panel we took a bunch of pictures for people as well as for a photoshoot involving free mountain dew. After that, I went to a table near Artist Alley to talk to Saix and her friend until Kairi arrived. Then we found our Roxas and Axel again. Axel and Kairi went to a FMA panel while me and Roxas scavanged the Dealers Room for the last time. Roxas eventually got a "I can't dance without arrows" shirt XD. Then we went to the Game Room to vs each other in DDR & play Rock Band. We never got to play Rock Band together because of the weirdness of the line but we did get to play it seperately. After Axel and Kairi met us up and watched us play some of Rock Band we headed back into the lobby where we met up with Kairi's brother. He took Kairi, me, another Axel & her boyfriend out to Bojangles. There were no noncongoers there, so we didn't really creep anyone out. Which was kinda dissapointing but yeah haha. But there were sporks there, so I brought two back for my other Axel and Roxas. Making our way back to the convention from a parking lot across the street, I was tackled to the ground by L and Matt which made my day XD. Then I took picture with them before going back inside and going to the closing ceremony. Taking a few last pictures out in the hallway, we all said bye and slowly left one by one until I was the only one left. So I called Holt and talked to her for a few minutes before my Dad got there. Then, when I was at Dad's house packing my suitcase to go home, it really hit me that everything was over. I got contact info from most of the people I met, but it was still really sad to think about. I almost felt like crying but I didn't really have time haha. So I changed into normal clothes (but kept my hair spiked) before getting into the car and meeting my mom at Target. Some middleschoolers walking from the neighborhood to Target laughed at me while I was waiting in the car but whatever haha they just don't understand.
So much happened this weekend that I know there's gaps I left out. I can't even begin to describe how amazing it was. All the friends I made there will literally forever be in my heart, not to make a reference to Kingdom Hearts. Animazement is truely the one place on Earth where I feel completely at ease and like I belong. I know it wouldn't be as special if it were any longer, but I seriously wish I could feel that good about my life every single day. And that, is saying something.
I cannot wait until next year and I sincerely hope that I get to see my Axel and Roxas this summer. They live in Wake Forest, so that shouldn't be that hard of a task, but still. Roxas said she goes to Triangle Town Center, so once she gets ungrounded we can hang out sometime. So yays~
“Hey guys Merry Christmas to you. I'm kind of bored and I just hiked up a LJ post but like it was really dull and boring and I didn't really have much to say so I figured I'd do a voice post to make it more exiting. Let's see here so yeah today is Christmas eve we all was supposed to go shopping but my mom's convinced me like probably the world's worst day to go driving so people are gonna be pulling out of parking lots so purchase for 2 secs it's gonna be hard to find parking ___ is gonna be driving like crazy. It's pretty cold and crappy outside today so that's always fun and I'm kinda getting hungry and I don't feel like cooking but it was too grose(?) to drive somewhere and go get food for myself so I don't know ___ but I don't wanna write for that school. I have a really like good ___ idea too I just don't feel like writing but I'm gonna decide. Hey lucky oh 1 thing I probably haven't mentioned in this journal yet is I got a kitten, and it terrorist's everything in sight, it is amazingly cute even though his claws hurt as well as his teeth yeah oh no I finished the memory which is pretty awesome cos I don't feel like finishing it which is kinda sad because I always finish my games but then again technically I already finished this game it was just on the game boy but that's ok. I'll probably finish it 1 day I”
I haven't posted a somewhat happy post on here in forever, so I figured it was time.
Umm, nothing much is really going on lately. My mom has to drive me back and forth from everywhere [generally just school because I'm trying to not make her have to do anything else for me] since my car is in the shop and will be for another week. Then again I guess I'm glad I'm not driving cuz it has been FREEZING cold outside. It's even snowed twice in one week. In North Carolina, that like NEVER happens XD.
I haven't seen Twilight yet, so I have no comment as of yet. Haha. But I've heard it was either amazing or it sucked, so I really don't know what to expect.
Oh so on Wednesday, I dug through my closet that had a moutain of stuffed animals so I could put some in bags to get rid of and give to toys for tots or something. I found so much stuff that I haven't seen in years!<3 It was great. One thing I found, though, made me cry. I found this letter my Dad wrote me when he lived in Michigan after I was there for that summer or whatever. It didn't really say much but it made me cry thinking about how we use to be like best friends really and like I dunno. It was just sad. But the rest of that closet was very happy memories. Very happy. I found a lot of my Pokemon and Lion King things. And this Stitch stuffed animal I was looking for when I was about to go to Animazement I think that's really cute, I found it in there after not knowing where the heck it went for the longest time.
I'm so excited for Christmas even though I have like six things on my list that I want. One thing I'm really excited for is during winter break I'm going to start [and hopefully finish] my cosplay. Tammi mentioned something about making Sora's school uniform shorts from scratch since I won't be able to find a tie that really matches so I might be doing that as well but dunno yet. I wanna make a Mr. Mew too, to go with my Neku cosplay. Even though I won't have a Shiki unless I meet a new person this year and hang out with them a lot.
I was Ash Ketchum on Halloween at school. XD. Just to say, since I don't think I mentioned it on here. Holt and Hillary took pictures of me but I don't think either of them kept them which is kinda sad cuz I wish I had a picture to show people. Basically I was just wearing Sora's tanktop shirt thing, jeans, and Sora's sidebag things and carrying around Ash's hat, Pikachu, and a pokeball with action figures of Charmander, Pikachu and Squirtle. So that was fun. Even though I was like the only person that dressed up besides Bridget O. I love cosplaying at school! Normally I hate when people stare at me but for some reason it's just fun in cosplay XD.
Oh and the show was pretty dysfunctional. It turned out pretty good I guess but manohman what it took to get there. Depending on if I get crewhead this show or not as well as what show we're doing next fall, I'm planning on trying out for an ACTING part. Hahah. This show actually wouldn't have been bad to try out for but I missed the workshops because of my car accident. Oh and also I couldn't try out for the musical next year [unless I change my mind about it] because I'm trying to graduate early. In January 2010. Only reason that kinda sucks is now I've found quite a few electives I'm interested in taking so I don't realy have room to fit them all anymore. One thing that also depends on that is if the college I chose to go to likes that or not. So if they don't like that and I really want to go there, I obviously have to stay for second semester. To be honest, besides missing the Musical, I couldn't care less about missing prom and the big graduation. I hate crowds and I honestly don't like a lot of the people in my year to begin with. I've kinda secluded myself within the theatre world or something lol. I don't know, but I don't like the other kids much anymore.
Speaking of theatre, I really want to go to Verona, Italy now! I was doing research for my Tech project and it's absolutely beautiful. I wish I could go there. I'm doing Romeo and Juliet for my design project if that wasn't obvious from Verona, Italy. Haha. I looooove Romeo and Juliet so much. Gah, just remembered my color renderings are due on Thursday lol. I only have the Capulet Orchard [the balcony] and Verona Street done out of like six or seven more.
That's about all I got for now, I guess. Not much going on for me right now. Soo I'll post later! When something eventful happens.
Yeah I know I only post when things are like really bad in my life lol. I'm in a really good mood right now, though. But some bad things have happened.
Okay sooo last week I was sick and missed two days of school. So when I went back on Monday I was like ughh crapload of make up work. But like it didn't really seem that bad at the end of the day because I had a good day, and I had the next day off to make it all up.
So yesterday was the day I had off, and my Dad scheduled me a 9: 30 AM dentist appointment. I mean I wasn't really looking forward to going, but it was whatever. I had trouble getting up out of my warm, comfortable bed too so I left kinda late. Like right at 9 o'clock. So I'm driving to Raleigh from my Mom's house and this red light turns yellow. Knowing it's a light that takes pictures if you're caught by the red light, I stop. I don't exactly slam on the brakes, but I don't exactly coast to a stop either. Pause for a couple seconds.
SLAM.
Yeah, I got rear-ended. So I burst into tears and wait for the red light to turn green so I can drive off to the side of the road across the intersection. When I get out of the car, the lady is like AHH I'M SO SORRY. ARE YOU OKAY, SWEETIE? and like hugged me and everything. So we wait for the police to get there and I call my Mom to tell her what happened and she starts on her way there, and I call my Dad to tell him I can't make it to the dentist appointment. And this is all ironic because on the day I first got my braces I was also in a car accident with my mom where we were rear-ended at a red light.
So the police officer gets there and I give him my license and etc. The lady's car is so bad that she had to get it towed away and I drove mine home. After that, I went with my Mom to the ER where they tested my reflexes and crap like that. So I spent a good 2 and half hours in there.
The good part of the day was after we got out of the ER, we went shopping. Although the bad part about going shopping was I was still branded with my ER wristband which couldn't be ripped off, it needed to be cut off. But I got a couple new shirts, new pair of jeans and a new pair of boots. Then I got home and watched a movie with my mom to try and take my mind off the whole day. After that I got started on my pile of makeup work. I got most of it done, but since I was already in a bad mood I got really frustrated when I couldn't figure out some math problems and it ended up being 9 o'clock before I was like 3/4ths of the way done. So I was just like forget it and I watched TV on the couch, closing my eyes every once in a while. Mom made me get up and go to bed around 10 and I kept texting Kurt till like 10: 30, when I eventually went to sleep.
Also my Grandpa is going in for heart sugery tomorrow. Woo...
And Taylor has some stuff going on, so I'm talking to her about that. So I'll post other stuff later. Byee.
Again, I thought everything was getting better. Again, I was wrong.
So I had rehearsal today, right? Nothing special, I already had another random one on Tuesday. But since Evan doesn't know how to make a mic plot, it's not done. So rehearsals are kinda awkward and random.
But let me say this now:
I DO NOT BLAME EVAN OR TAYLOR IN ANY WAY, SHAPE, OR FORM. I love them both. And I love them even more for trying so hard to make this work.
So since the coordination with which actors had which number mic was messed up, Evan's running of the board wasn't exactly smooth. But again, he wouldn't have been stressing out and trying to fix things so much if he didn't have to worry about my side of the job.
But since the board and mics weren't running very smoothly, our two teachers completely chewed him out. So I felt bad about that but everything seemed okay after a little while. Minus the fact that the actors don't know their lines, the set's not done being built and it's not painted since it's not finished being built. Then rehearsal ended, I stayed upstairs in the booth to help Evan lock everything up and I went down with him to notes with our tech director incase I needed to pay attention to anything in specific with mics. Caitlin went with me also, to stand up for Evan incase we needed to.
But our tech director told us to step away for a minute so we couldn't really do anything about it. And I expect she chewed him out more, but I never really got the chance to talk to Evan before I had to leave so that I didn't end up crying infront of everyone. So I also had plans to hang out with 2 of my friends that I hardly see tomorrow by going to the state fair with them, but then it turns out there's a rehearsal tomorrow that I have to go to. FUN TIMES. So me and Caitlin got pissed off because of that.
Oh. PS. Did I mention bodymic crew has 4 people? ...Yeah.
So this is the first time I've ever seriously been even THINKING about quitting the show. But I love the people in this show too much to let them down like that. Especially after today, it would feel like I was completely ditching Evan and I can't do that to him. But now I'm kinda seeing why Holt didn't want to do this. This show is just so dysfunctional. I heard that yesterday rehearsal went so badly that our director literally stormed out of the auditorium.
At this point, it's not even about wanting my job back. I just want everything to go well and I don't want Evan and Taylor to feel like they have the weight of the world on their shoulders. They were never trained to do my job, and they can't be blamed for that. I don't know much about the board myself, so I would definately never ever take the job if it was a necessity that I had to know the board. But even so, Evan and Taylor didn't sign up for this. April was crewhead first and they were the next best trained people on the board, so they were chosen and stuck with all of this and it's not fair.
It's not fair that all of this comes back to how shy and timid I was last year and basically the whole theatre department agrees with me on this.
Most of all, I can't believe that one quarter hasn't even passed in this school year. Wtf. This has been the longest 9 weeks of my life.
Oh, and another thing that just made my mood ohsomuch better. I ranted to Kurt cuz, you know, I figured that he would maybe act like normal and perhaps make a joke out of it and make me laugh? But no, he was just like "Oh wow. You cried? Most girls I know wouldn't cry over that, they would just be like OMG I can't believe this!!" Well good for the girls you know. You've only known me for like 5 years now; you should know I cry pretty easily. Especially when it comes to things when it's my friends that are the ones being hurt. I have a really strong urge to be a stereotypical girl and bitch him out but I don't want to start a fight because I've never really fought with anyone and for the first person to fight with to be Kurt would just be weird. Then again, it probably will be him. When I argue with him, even though we always do it in a joking way, I can feel the tension there sometimes. The times where I feel like I should say something but I just shrug it off and play it cool. I'm probably gonna snap one of these days.
Blaaah. Fail. I have to survive the next week. Good luck to me...
Lately I've been taking the approach that if I find something to look forward to each day, then the day usually turns out good. My prime example is Sound Crew meetings because they're always fun. And it's been working out, for the most part. But I'm still dreading school. I went to some like company dinner/party thing with my Mom and she brought up how I use to 'love' going to school and now I hate it. I've never loved going to school; I just accepted it as something that had to be done. Lately I treat it as if it were torture.
But like, after I figured out that plan I had a pretty good week last week. And like yesterday was pretty good for a Monday, I thought. Mostly because I had Sound Crew. I thought today was...alright. I felt totally horrible during English. My brain was seriously not functioning. We were doing a prewriting for our essay tomorrow and like...I was completely braindead. I didn't think much of that, though. But I just was like "Ugh why is it still Tuesday" to Kurt and he was like "Wow school must be really bad for you this year. for me it's really easy mostly and I really don't remember you being like this last year" so basically it just hit me that my day pretty much sucked.
It's not even that bad. Both of the Brandons are moved somewhat away from me and I mean they don't really talk to me even though they are still somewhat close to me, so that's good. And now I sit infront of Caitlin and diagonal from Wojo who's really funny so that class is pretty much enjoyable now. English is still pretty much easy except for we're starting doing an in class essay tomorrow comparing The Great Gatsby and Death of a Salesman. Spanish is even somewhat easy. Tech is tech. I have high grades in all of these classes; 90.3 (B) for Algebra II, 97 for English (A), 90.1 (B) for Spanish and 100 (A) for tech so... I should have no problems with school, right?
I still do work like I'm suppose to during class and I always do homework as well but I just...I don't even know.
I'm trying to wonder if it's my social situation. But I'm like being more outgoing then EVER this year. I'm basically acting like a crew head for body mics even though I'm not; like I had the responsibility of training the noobs and all that. I sounded very confident [at least to myself] and everyone was intently paying attention 98% of the time, so I feel like I did well. And I love Evan and Taylor as crew heads; they're both really sweet. And I'm really excited for the show.
I think I feel like something is just really missing in my life. And I can't figure out what it is.
Post the first line from your 25 most recent fanfics and try to find a pattern.
1) Fractured Love; Kingdom Hearts, Sora/Kairi AU It had been two years now since Ryou’s death and everything had been okay except for the few occasional nightmares.
2) Whatever it Takes; TWEWY; Neku/Shiki post!game. I thought that life after the Game would be better.
3) Neku's Reflections; TWEWY; slight Neku/Shiki Until recently, nothing mattered.
4) I Was Meant to Love You; Kingdom Hearts; Sora/Kairi post!KH2 fluff "Couldn’t sleep either?" I asked in a loud whisper as I approached the boy in the hammock, who currently seemed to be heavily concentrated on the sky.
5) My Last Breath; Kingdom Hearts; Sora/Kairi I only had one night.
6) Simple and Clean; Kingdom Hearts; Sora/Kairi It wasn’t suppose to be like this.
7) So Clichè; Kingdom Hearts; Sora/Kairi, valentines day Everyone seemed to be paired off come Valentine’s day; Kairi had noticed this every year and it was almost enough to make her sick to her stomach
8) You and Me and One Spotlight; Kingdom Hearts; Roxas/Olette, theatre!centric Closing night.
9) Hot Chocolate; Kingdom Hearts; Sora/Kairi, Christmas fic Sipping her hot chocolate with a small smile to her best friends, Kairi couldn’t shake the feeling that something was off.
10) Waltz of the Damned; Kingdom Hearts; Sora/Kairi, medieval "We’ll be the best friends forever, won’t we, Sora?" A little girl in a light pink dress that was slightly torn and grass stained poked at the brunette laying on the ground beside her.
11) All At Once; Kingdom Hearts; Sora/Kairi Seated next to Kairi and dangling my legs off the edge of the dock, it was almost as if everything was the same as before; almost.
12) Shattered Dreams; Kingdom Hearts; Sora/Kairi AU By just looking at my life you'd say, 'Oh she's got a perfect life! Perfect boyfriend, perfect grades, everything's perfect for her!'…But it's not.
13) Broken Chains; Kingdom Hearts; Sora/Kairi, random unfinished fanfic collection "I’ve been having these weird thoughts lately…Like, is any of this for real?…Or not?" I asked myself in my head and closed my eyes.
14) The True Meaning of Christmas; Kingdom Hearts; Sora/Kairi After viewing Jack and Sally’s revelation of a real present, Sora couldn’t help but feel embarrassed.
15) Valentine's Day; Kingdom Hearts; Sora/Kairi "Perfect." Sora complemented himself as he pocketed a paopu fruit.
16) Shadow of the Day; Kingdom Hearts; onesided Sora/Kairi...sort of. Kairi let out an inaudible sigh; despising the silence between them.
17) No Canary in a Cage for Me; Kingdom Hearts; onesided Sora/Naminè Naminè stared at the boy through the glass that encased him; her eyes fixated on the soft heaves of his chest as he inhaled and exhaled.
18) Stars of Memory; Kingdom Hearts; Sora/Kairi poetry A memory, a lone star in the night sky.
19) Home is Where the Heart is; Kingdom Hearts; Sora/Kairi Everything was so different.
20) Falling into Memories of You; Kingdom Hearts; onesided Sora/Kairi Memories lined every crease in the walls of Kairi’s home and painfully etched their way back into her heart no matter how hard she tried to push them away every single time she walked into a room.
21) Forever Hold Your Peace in Pieces; Kingdom Hearts; Roxas/Olette Roxas held in a glare as he smiled upon his friends; the thought that he should be the one at the altar with Olette and Hayner should be the one stuck as best man refusing to leave his mind
23) Photo; Kingdom Hearts; Sora/Kairi Everyday since I had returned home, I had been showered with attention from everyone on the island.
24) Easier to Run; Kingdom Hearts; Sora!centric I looked down at my friends bodies; the aftermath of the battle that had been raging on for days. I studied them, their bodies patched with wounds and bruises, glazed over in dried blood.
25) Who's that Girl?; Kingdom Hearts; Sora/Kairi, anti-Naminè The crimson haired girl watched from the corner in hate as the two figures passionately kissed.
Patterns! ● I hardly ever start with dialogue. ● A lot of the first lines are pretty angsty XD ● I write a crap load of Sokai ._. ● I NAME ALMOST EVERYTHING AFTER SONGSSSS why so uncreaaaaative lol.<--me too, Zanisha x_x; hahah. If we ever get published our editors are going to be like I HATE YOU when it comes time to name something.
How about a brief introduction for yourself? I'm Brooke, pennames Emerald31 annnnnd I wrote lots of Sokai fanfiction.
Name one thing you’d LOVE to write, but have been too afraid or shy to do. DEATH NOTE FANFICTION... because the plot of the series is so intimidating D=
Do you have trouble taking criticism? Or worse yet, do you have the dreaded bloated ego? I actually really appreciate criticism though I don't always change my writing to go with what they say. I often see where their coming from and fix it if it's fixable or just keep it if I personally think it should be kept the way it is.
When you write, is there anything that helps? Music? Quiet room? Not really. Sometimes I just feel really in the mood to write. And when that happens, if I'm listening to music, I generally tend to kinda forget it's playing.
What inspires you? Everything.
How would you sum up your fanfiction experiences and yourself as a writer? Haha. Wow. Fanfiction has... inspired me as well as taught me things in life that probably should have been kept unlearned for a few more years. But that's what I get for being a curious elementary school kid on the internet. But yeah, I've always liked reading a lot. And when I started reading Cardcaptors fanfiction I was kinda like "Wow, that's really cool! I think I'll try that too."
And what got you into fanfiction to begin with? Like I said up there, I use to read and 'write' (I don't even want to try and remember how horrible my writing would have been in elementary school...) Cardcaptors fanfiction back in 5th grade. Then I sorta attempted to write again for Rurouni Kenshin but that didn't really last long either. Now, Kingdom Hearts. Reading fanfiction for this fandom is really something else. It's so easy to slip into the mindset of ANY character in this fandom. Every character has something you can relate to and it just makes everything so much more personal. Not to mention the fact that the majority of us have grown up watching the classic Disney movies in this game. And although this is biased by a lot, I think that KH fans are some of the friendliest people you will ever meet. Just go to an anime convention; you'll see.
I see. So what kind of fanfiction do you like to write? fanfiction that stays true to the series, even if you're writing AU. Just because you're write an AU story does NOT mean that you can take a character and completely turn their personality around. As for Yaoi, Yuri, whatever; I don't really care as long as there is logical proof behind it. Like L and Light... I can especially see some hints of that in Death Note. Kind of; but you can play off of that. Though I hate to say it, there are hints of Sora and Riku in Kingdom Hearts. But I've yet to find someone who writes a good SoraxRiku fic while managing to keep them both in character... so, yeah. I use to just hate that pairing in general until I got into cosplay. When you're cosplaying Sora, it's kinda hard NOT to go along with all the jokes XD.
Do you find writing easy? Hard? What are the aspects of writing you struggle most with? I don't really find it HARD but Iunno. I just read it and know that there's more to be done with it although I'm not exactly sure what. I know I'm not too good with detail; I'm more of a dialouge person.
Write a few sentences or so of your favorite pairing or character. Blinking his eyes open and giving a shake of his head, Sora focused his attention back to the front of the room as the teacher continued his lesson in a monotoned voice. 'Not this class, still...' The brunette rested his cheek on his fist with a sigh, 'I can't take another forty five minutes of this.'
Cars, street signs, skyscrapers, subways, people; Shibuya was lined with all of them. To a person visiting for the first time, everything in this city might seem interesting and exciting, but Neku knew better than that. Growing up on these graffiti tatooed streets where fashion thrived and money bought happiness, he knew the real hell that it really was. All the deceit and betrayl that went on in this town... He was done with acting like everything was okay when it was clearly not.
Are there any fanfiction clichés or trends you're sick of or just can't stand? I can't stand when people put themselves in the game, anime, book, whatever just to get with their favorite character. Get a life! I put myself in a fanfic when I was a noob, but I didn't make myself date my favorite character. I even knew back then that that was stupid.
Are you guilty of any fanfiction clichés you hate? Or any other ones? Like I said above. Yeah... I'm kinda guilty of just about every clichè possible... but I can pull them off! That's the good part. I've written the highschool fic, valentines day fic, kiddie proposal, misteltoe scene... I'm sure the list goes on.
What was the first fandom you wrote for, and do you still like/participate in it? Cardcaptors and no lol
Name your OTPs or most frequently written pairings/characters and explain what it is about them that you love to write. Sora and Kairi because... Simple and Clean. There's nothing more to say about it, really =] it's the romance that everyone dreams of. and I feel like I got a taste of it somewhat and I can't wait to feel like that again about someone.
Neku and Shiki because they are the pure meaning of opposites attract.
Roxas and Olette because they're just really cute. Plus there's little subtle smiles to each other in Kingdom Hearts 2. XD
What would you call your writing style? I have no idea. I call it Brooke. haha. No, seriously. It's just me *shrug*
Do you read other people’s fanfics? If so, what do you find yourself reading the most? Mhmmm<3. KH because that's about the only thing I get alerts for... I have an alert on the 1 chaptered TWEWY fanfic on ff.net too..
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